It seems to me that whenever I’ve said “I would never” in my life, life has shown me that I would and did. When I was younger, I thought, I would never have to use anti-depressants” and then life showed me a passage so low that I was in the doctor’s office getting a prescription. That’s one example. I have many other examples that are more personal. I have learned that saying “I would never” means that will be happening to me in the future.
Therefore, I never say never! I don’t know what life is going to show me. I think sometimes life shows me the very things I thought I would never do or be involved in to keep me humble. I have NO idea what I my future holds. I have no idea what situations my future will show me and I hope I will react with the highest degree of grace but I would NEVER propose that would be the case.
I worked with a wonderful man for many years. He smiled every day, was the most pleasant person, and very well liked. I went on overnight trips with this man for work and thought I knew his character. I was shocked to get a call that this beautiful man had shot and killed his girlfriend and was barricaded in his home. He eventually came out and spent a short time in prison before he committed suicide.
What this horrible experience taught me was that we are all capable of anything, given the exact circumstances that would trip us up. I’m not saying I’m capable of what my friend did, but I don’t judge him. I pray for him and the young woman he killed. I pray for their families. Judgment is not part of this scenario for me. It taught me that good people do bad, even horrible things, sometimes.
My life’s journey has been such a learning curve. I have been taught so much through painful, yet necessary experiences. Life has taught me the grace of compassion and humility. Life has brought me to my knees and the Lord has lifted me up. I am grateful to not be living “an ordinary life” because that’s not what I need. I need all of these experiences to become what I am supposed to be; a human being full of love for mankind, free of judgment and disdain.
I now realize that “never” is absolutely the wrong way to phrase anything unless I’m trying to draw it toward me. Let me end this post by saying I will never win the Powerball or MegaMillion Lotteries.
Peace to you today and always.